I am blessed to attend a beautiful Extraordinary Form Mass each Sunday, offered by devout, orthodox priests. I go to confession regularly and make every effort to lead a good Christian life.
Yet, I struggle with despair at the future of the Church. Between the news of the scandals and what’s happening in Rome, I find it my faith regularly disturbed. I often seriously wonder whether I will die a Catholic, because there are days – increasingly more in recent months – where I think of giving up entirely. Why bother when it seems as if so few of the Church’s priests and bishops believe in her teachings? Why cling to tradition it seems increasingly likely that, within my lifetime, Rome will capitulate to the fads of the world?
Rather than finding consolation in the Church, I instead feel abandoned. I speak of this feeling often, including to my confessor, but it does not abate. If anything, it grows stronger the more I openly admit it and that worries me.
What am I to do?
Never give in to doubts.
Christ’s promises are rock solid.
The Church is indefectible.
You have a role to play and eternity awaits.
Pray and be good.
Off up your suffering in reparation for sins that offend God and the Blessed Virgin.
When high leaders in the Church do confusing things people will, legitimately, be upset. When that happens, we have to stay calm. Not false calm, to the point of inaction or paralysis. Calm, in the sense of not having a spittle-flecked nutty or doing something rash.
Each horrid thing that clerics do or strange thing they say is further proof that this is God’s Church. Only He keeps it going. If it depended on us, we’d be finished in no time. God is trustworthy and the Church is indefectible.
Every Pope’s pontificate, every bishop’s or every priest’s mandate are the mere blips in the long history of salvation which is directed, not by us, but, again, by God.
We are offered every grace we need to get though any blip, whatsoever.
Some Councils and Popes were not nearly as important as others. In the long term, we will see how things shake out. Since Francis is interested in “peripheries”, one day we may refer to this time as the “periphery of Francis” rather than the “pontificate”. Perspective!
When something weird or confusing comes our way, we have an opportunity to crack open our trustworthy books and study. Thus, we wind up being better educated and better prepared to give reasons for the faith that is in us. That’s a good thing.